Okay day I guess...

Today was sort of ho-hum diet wise. I stayed on track really well and my only slip up was a nibble of a biscuit at breakfast. Being low carb is my diet - this was not correct. Seeing as how I cooked them to entice my dear mother who has cancer and barely eats anything....well she wouldn't have one unless I did. So I nibbled...so did she. But she also had gravy (I didn't) and a half grapefruit and a spoonful of egg. Thankfully she ate a little and thankfully I only ate a little. What pressure!!! It is quite a big challenge trying to get her to eat and me not eat. She pretty much won't eat if I don't and lord knows she can't lose anymore weight. The last few months she has lost so much weight and it seems that I found it all. No, I don't want cancer so I can be thin. But, I just wish she would eat but not expect me to do the same. I don't have cancer - I don't need to gain weight. Other than the biscuit incident - I totally stayed on track and I am doing fine. Thinking good thoughts and headed for success in my new goals.

Home again

Okay so I made it back home again. Family wanted spagetti and garlic toast. What part of Southbeach allows for pasta and bread??? In Phase 1 no less? Well credit to me they had the meal they wanted. I had a very small portion of salad with a bit of the sauce on top for dressing. No pasta, no garlic bread.

What I've learned so far

The "Beck Diet Solution" has something! I mean really something. I have been using the cognitive therapy and so far so good. Only five days in and I am impressed. To face a few facts this is just the right way of thinking and of thinking those thoughts consistently and repeatedly. That's it. I am eating slower. Giving myself credit for things. Reading & acknowledging why I want to lose weight. Always eating sitting down. And having a diet coach/buddy. Great. I can't wait for each new day to read what else. This is good stuff here.

Doing well on the Southbeach diet too. Of course, next week will be a challenge as I am home with my family who only likes meat & potatoes. Here at my week on of work - we eat healthy and I can prepare what I like. Home is a different story - picky hubby, mother with cancer....I could keep going but hey we all have battles and mountains to climb. If I want to be healthy, trim and sexy...well then I must overcome. LOL!!!

Another day..another diet.

Okay...I am trying Southbeach. That has worked for me in the past. But, according to Judith Beck's book. The Beck Solution (i think) I also have an alternate back up diet in case I can't follow through with this one. Weight Watchers will be my back up diet. That has worked for me in the past as well. Not as fast as SB but not as strict as SB either. Dr. Beck calls it cognitive therapy. Every day for six week you have different lessons to do so you learn new behavior. You learn to think and eat like a skinny person. I like it. So far I have learned to tell myself daily "why I want to be thin" and to "always sit down to eat - always". Both things make good sense to me. What are some of reasons for wanting to succeed with my diet? Hmmmm... aside from the obvious...

I want to be slender (ya know hot!)
Feel comfy naked
Be confident
Wear smaller clothes
Have my husband feel like he has a trophy wife (I am so vain - I probably think this blog is about me.)

I also want to be healthy and stop the yo yo diets that I have done for years. Once and for all I want to get this right!!

I am back and serious!

Okay no more gaining, losing and gaining. It is over! I am done. This time next year I will not be playing this same old game. My goal is a pound a week. No nonsense. I want to look slim and feel confident. I want my hubby to be proud of the way his wife looks. Yes....I guess I am vain but I want to wear small clothes and be slim and trim. Healthy is a good side benefit. In the past I thought if know one saw me eat something then it was calorie free. I mean not really?! But sort of in a odd way because I would sneak food and expect no ramifications from it. Well, here I am a year later and fifteen pounds heavier! Really!! What was I thinking????